Worn

Here's my hair shot for the week:

I was getting ready for the pumpkin farm, which included a surprise gift:

Thanks, Kautzman KettleKorn!

Today, I'm tired, so forgive me for indulging in a little whining. Cancer fatigue is frustrating.

Most of the time, I feel great. Well, aside from my body feeling stiff and sore all the time. If only ibuprofen wasn't hard on platelets! But protecting my fragile platelet count is top priority, so I do my best to move and stretch ("motion is lotion," as my PT says) and just ignore the aches, being thankful that chemo isn't too tough this time around.

Last week was a fun, full, busy week. I felt great and pushed myself more than I should have. Now it's Sunday, and I'm still tired after mostly resting since Thursday night. My sweet husband is so patient with me, not complaining when I fall asleep on the couch immediately after dinner, sleeping away a hefty portion of the short time we get together each day. I feel like I should be able to do more, and I wonder if I'm just being lazy or wimpy.

Today, this song really resonates with me. When I see the lyrics in black and white, they sound so depressed! I know all of these things can happen - I see that in my own life on a regular basis. But life can be tough, and I think most of us are worn out pretty frequently. Even though these are end-of-the-rope lyrics, the song soothes my soul and encourages me. I hope it does for you, too.

Grace and peace.

Worn by Tenth Avenue North (Click to view video!)

I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn